I’m not sure if this post belongs here but I can’t find any fitting subreddits and would like to hear advice from someone who is in the position to be giving it. I am a bit mixed with different cultures my father is from the middle east he is Iraqi Kurdish and my mother is American but her father is from Mexico and her mother is indigenous (North American not South American indigenous). As time progressed I was able to see the beauty in my multiculturalism and being mixed but I can’t help but feel like I don’t fit in any of my groups well enough and it’s making me insecure and giving me major imposter syndrome. I know this isn’t the most complicated mixture but it’s sure been made out to be by my family it was constantly mentioned to me.
They always misunderstand one another and it’s super complicated because both have very different backgrounds I mean what my dad went through in his time was unfathomable. They would argue and disrespect one another so much it’s like they weren’t even trying to understand each other at all, religion is also a big conflict. I’ve literally been told I’m just too complicated to love/understand by my moms side.
After what happened I don’t really have any connection to what’s left of my father’s family they basically aren’t in my life so my father’s friends who are some of the refugees that escaped with him have taken on as being my family so they have provided a lot of cultural integration for that side. I was able to celebrate cultural events with them and they treated me like I was apart of them however my father still refused to teach me to be fluent in Iraqi Arabic dialect or Sorani Kurdish, I heavily suspect he doesn’t want me to hear what’s left of his family talking shit about me over the phone about me being American or my mom not being middle eastern (or Muslim) because my dad caught his ex friend talking shit about me and my sister when we were children over it.
As for my mother’s side the Mexican side resides in Mexico I’ve never really gotten to meet them, last time I checked they legally can’t. I’ve mostly been around the indigenous side and the siblings of my mom who carried a bit of our Mexican culture over. I did grow up around a few Spanish speaking people but I was never fluently taught Spanish either. I was present at a few events like quinces but I never was able to be engaged in them neither did I ever get one of my own. I never got to cook any authentic Mexican food along with my tías because I’m presumed to be different all the time and I’ve absorbed introversion from my dad’s culture plus I couldn’t eat pork because my dad would lose his shit.
No one from either side would incorporate me in something like their side convos I wanted to feel accepted and included I wanted to bond on a deeper level. I was there but I wasn’t really there. Sure I can relate to some memes on the internet and inside jokes from each community of these cultures but I’m not fully included. I’m trying to learn all languages but it’s hard doing it at once. Sure the no sabo jokes can be funny but I’ve had people go as far to deny my heritage and call me white/ tell me Im not apart of the community when I try to learn.
It literally happened at a party of majority Hispanic people this guy went on a whole rant to me about how I don’t belong with them and he kept bringing up I don’t have my Mexican family around me which makes me incapable of connecting with that side of me and I “wasn’t one of them and never will be”. It was so bad on my way home I did nothing but sob I was not expecting that I just wanted to have fun. That guy did get told off by some bystanders but I still remember him and his friends laughing at me and calling me “gringa” when all I said was my grandad was from Mexico but I never was around him. They also kept bringing up how I don’t look like them just because I’m of a more olive complexion than brown I’m just slightly naturally tanned (my dad’s skin is lighter than my mom’s). He also grabbed me when he was drunk to say more unnecessary things to me I was definitely feeling a lot of emotions. It’s like I try to learn and get immediately made fun of and shoved away for it like how tf am I supposed to start.
I’m more connected with my father’s culture than anything I have more trouble trying to further connect to my Hispanic/Latino culture it’s hard when I’m only being recognized for what makes me different. The amount of times I’ve only been reduced to just being “Arab” by my moms side and others even though I’m Kurdish and just so happen to have Iraqi culture too is crazy.
What makes it worst is when I worry if I don’t look enough like everything I am which is in itself incorrect because there’s no right way to look like any of these ethnicities. I’m very obviously a person of color but people often tell me I don’t even look Latina which confuses me so much. Sometimes I get told I don’t even look middle eastern because my nose isn’t “strong” which feels slightly racist. Hell my dad’s friends tell me I should take it as a compliment that they think I look half white when I’m not. I have a blend of various ethnic features but I don’t think I look wildly different from either sides. Ive learned to not let it affect me as much because I can’t control other people but I still feel like I don’t actually belong from time to time especially if someone from either of my cultures tells me I don’t look/act enough like them. Not everyone is nasty to me but those who are hurt because I’m a little sensitive about this.
I’ve tried joining clubs on campus and meeting more people but it seems that just makes it worst sometimes. Is there anyway I can try to connect further on my own? I’m still planning to learn all those languages but I doubt I can do that fast enough. I feel insecure when I tell people I’m also Latina because then they start fixating on that and some of them tell me I’m a fake. I’m so tired of feeling like I’m pretending to be something I am I just want to feel like a whole person not half this or part that.
This was hella long I’m sorry but it was kind of a rant I needed that off my chest. I’m not expecting anyone to have the same exact experience just someone who knows what this type of imposter syndrome is and how to heal/fix it.
TLDR; Both sides of my family and all their cultures don’t get along well and I haven’t felt fully connected or integrated in any of them. I’ve tried getting more interaction with others from those groups but it ends very bad sometimes what are some things I can do by myself to connect with these cultures and stop having imposter syndrome?
Edit: I’ve also been called slurs by my mom’s family too I specifically remember being 12 and being called a “good for nothing wetback” by my grandma’s sister. It amplified that “I don’t belong here” feeling I’m trying to get rid of.

Okay, lemme introduce my context first, I'm a 17-yrs old STUDENT, currently studying in a SEA country. I have use Notion, ClickUp and Google Calendar to mange my life. For nearly one year, I have made and continuously improve my productivy system but I think it still has some downsides. So I decided to share it here hope for a comment from you guy to continue improve it (And use it if you want.)

Note that: It just a support tool, most of the outcomes are by yourself discipline and perseverance.

Okay, Let's head into Google Calendar first, I have 2 separate Gmail to plan and evaluate my life each day. I'll call it GG Calendar 0 and GG Calendar 1.

• GG Calendar 0: Use to plan.
• GG Calendar 1: Use to log my activities and rate my day.

Both of them has same calendar ammout and type:

• Time Block: This is fixed time, you can't change it. E.g: School time, Online-learning time, (not self-learning, your leacher will decide this time), Sleep time (I mean, you can't decide what you do in your sleep time, right? )
• Housing: This is time when you doing stuff as home, such as: Cleanning your house (bedroom, living room, kitchen), Eating (breakfast, dinner), change clothes,...
• Entertain: Playing games, exercises, go out with friends, scrolling social media,...
• Reading: only for reading book, listen podcast (In general: acquire information from document)
• Learning: This is your self-learning time, you decide this time: Learning Udemy, Self learning other-language, doing homework (yeah, you decide this time, right?),
• Other: For things that can't fit in above calendar: Moving from place to place, doing other stuff,... or you can't use it when you can't decide time for which calendar.

Other: For things that can't fit in above calendar: Moving from place to place, doing other stuff,... or you can't use it when you can't decide time fit which calendar.
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Well, let's head to ClickUp, I think this is the best task-management system I've use, becuz I can't find better app. Free plan gives you 3 space, too enough, here is my spaces and how I use it. In general, after plan in Notion, I convert it into tasks in ClickUp then create a time block for that tasks in Google Calendar

1. Life: Manage thing in daily

• Plan & House folder has 3 list: Finance (Tasks related to money) , Habbit Tracker, Others (Things at home, Task that improve my productivity system)
• Reading: I make I list of book I'll read here.
• Entertain: has 3 list Game, Watching, Exercises: Depend on activities, I classify it in 1 of 3 lists.

1. Learn: Only for learning

• School: has 2 list: School and Online-School which provide you knowledge to get better at school
• Self-learning: It's vary depend on people, but i have 4 list: Programming-Coding, Designing-Graphics, Life Skills, Others

1. Work: This folder also depend on you, for me, I have:

• Youtube Channels: Making video, researching content,...
• Blog: Task that develop and improve, tracking... my blog

This is where I put my task in and prepare information (Prioritize, classify and set due date) so I can do it most effectively.
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Time to go for Notion I guess, I think my Notion is not too complex nor simple. It's a place where I put information, write diary, put my ideas, write down my future plan and break it down, manage differrent aspects in my life:

1. Home Page: First apge into Notion, use to navigate to other pages. I put my diary database here.
2. Daily Bucket: When I have ideas, I'll catch it and write it here by Notion's note widget in mobile devices.
3. Plan & House: this page sub page
   1. Time Management : Some rule that I use to manage my time: Game only 1 hr a day, how much time for ... activities is enough, social media limit...
   2. Finance: Things I want to buy, monthly subscription i need to pay...
   3. Goal: Write down the goal and stick with it.
   4. Habbit Tracker: Write down the habbit and stick with it too. I've created some time period and write the report about it weekly in this page.
4. Reading Library : Just a database of Books, Manga, Novels,....
5. Entertainment: 3 sub-page include Game, Watch and Exercises. I use this page and sub-page to plan what i'll do next in each activity. E.g: What I'll do in GTA Online, Which film i'll watch next ... and exercises schedule
6. School & University & Course: It's a database where I store information about each subject in school. Note, unit document,...
7. Self-Learning: Database where I story what I'm current self-learning: Coding (Python, C++, Java ), Designing (Photoshop, Canva), Drawing,...
8. Self - Working: Database for each things I'm currently working on E.g: Future post for Blog, Content for Youtube video
9. Note: This Page has some special Sub-page: Plan Guide, General Rule, Saved Web Resources. Plan Guide help me create an effective plan for tomorrow. General Rule I've to read everyday to use this system to it full potential on organized way, Saved Web Resource is where I store saved web thorugh Notion extension. \

These page isn't just separate. All of them were linked to my Daily Diary by some attribute. My Diary has some attributes like: Priority (Where I write priority task), Tags of day (Usual things happen in that day), Day Feelings, Self-learning (Linked with Self-Learning page), Daily Habbit (Linked with Daily Habbit page), Game, Read (linked with Game, Reading Library), What I ate today,... Make I sumarize and enjoy my day to the full-est.
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Let's jump into how do I use this system
You can think each tool has there own specialization.

• Google Calendar: Time
• ClickUp: Tasks
• Notion: Data and information

So I create a workflow with diagram, it's easy to understand and follow: (IDK how to insert image without a link to outside, any suggestion?)
There's a lot more thing about my system that I want to share but it's too long now. Guess I'll share it later. Hope to receive a comments from you guy so I can improve it.

This is my idea for an updated version of All Stars. The format is the exact same as the regular season, it just includes all returning queens. Basically a regular season with an All Stars cast.
I think this would lead to more queens coming out felling positive, knowing that they can control if the continue or not, and don’t feel the pressure. It would put the power back into the queens’ hands, instead of the other cast members.
This would also let us have better challenges (Regular Snatch Game, Lip Sync Lalaparuza) that’s more fair to the queens.
I know it might seem like I’m demoting the All Stars series, but I think this would be a good alternative, especially after us not getting to see some of our favourite lip sync-ers lip sync at all, and Heidi, Icesis, and Adore all close to/already quitting.
The budget and stakes can stay the same, it just wouldn’t be the All Stars format.
Opinions?

Did base python recently change how *list*.append() treats duplicated items?
I could be wrong but for as long as I can remember whenever I have used .append() to add a copy of an item to a list, it just went as is showing up as a copy in the list.
For example, take list L1 = ['a','b','c'] if I did L1.append('a') it would simply become L1 = ['a','b','c', 'a'] and so on.
But now it is showing up post-append as L1 = ['a','b','c', 'a **dupelabel1**'] and so forth, showing up as in place strings instead of metadata.
I work in bioinformatics and in biology duplicates within data are super-pervasive.
I had a major pipeline that depended on the cleaner version of list addition to preserve a data structure. But the new method (I think it is new) royally fucked up the pipeline and I spent hours chasing this ...
I am trying to think if I have ever seen dupelabel1 being used in base python and am drawing a blank. Am I mixed up or going crazy?

I (20M) am from North India but grew up in Chennai for 16 years, can speak Tamizh fluently and I think this makes me eligible to post in this subreddit
When I first joined this sub and went to the top posts of all time. Holy sh*t it was filled with casteism, posts against BJP, anti-Modi, Hindi imposition etc etc. Posts about the culture of Tamizh nadu were nearly non-existent. To be honest, this creates an extremely bad image of our state. I know problems exist and we should not ignore them but ffs where is the positivity? Posts about why Tamizh culture is considered great are extremely rare.
Let's take an example, a person from outside Tamizh Nadu comes here to explore more about our state, and the only thing he will find is negativity. That person will think that our state is full of casteism and guys who are insecure about the language. If you fear Hindi imposition, instead of hating Hindi, make others feel why Tamil survived for so long and why it is the oldest language in the world. Instead of downplaying Hindi and hating it, please show why Tamil is great. This subreddit is clearly not welcoming for outsiders. Even I who lived in this state for 16 years and proudly call it my home feel like an outsider.
Let's take the example of delhi, problems exist in Delhi too (you all know what problems are ), But if you go to that subreddit, it's very wholesome, hands down the best subreddit I have ever been into. That subreddit clearly shows the vibe of Delhi and what makes it special.
This subreddit feels like it is run by a political party for propaganda. If you really care about our state and culture please post some nice things which show the vibe of our culture.

A little back story: a little over a week ago, I had pain and swelling in my big toe. I thought I had injured it and just not realized it. After raising it and icing it enough that I could put a shoe on without much pain, I went to Urgent Care and was diagnosed with gout. I was given colchicine and prednisone, and I did a blood test. The colchicine did wonders… although I misunderstood some of what the doctor said and had beer that night. 😬 So the next day. I was a little worse, but not as bad as before the pill. My UA level was 6.5, which they said wasn’t too high but my symptoms were still normal for gout.
I have drank craft beer, 12-16 cans a week and mostly IPAs, for 12 years or so. I have no doubt that the beer has led to my condition. I have seen a few posts on here that say diet can drop your UA by one point, and that you can reach a point of saturation (I think that was the term… I may have that wrong) at 6.0. So my question is, since my current UA is less than a full point from saturation, am I in a position to control my gout with diet - namely, by cutting out beer and possibly red meat? I never eat organ meats and rarely have sea food.
I already drink at least a full gallon of water everyday - I did 75 Hard last year and didn’t stop that. I could probably drink more…. But I’m really drinking water most of the time throughout the day.
I really would like to avoid medication. I already have hypertension and am on lisinopril, which I am to understand has some complications with allo and unfortunately is another contributor to high UA levels.
Also, I’ve seen some contradictory posts here as well as articles on the internet about two things: dairy and walking. Is dairy good for gout or bad for gout? What about walking?

Hi all sincerely sorry if this post is not allowed since the book is new. The book shared about a character that sounds pretty like the antagonist of the nemesis book although the image given looked atad different
Cult abominatio

A dark mirror of the loyal Divisio Assassinorum, whose members were created using long forbidden techniques in compact with the corrupting powers of the Warp.

Infernus abomination

In the latter years of the Horus Heresy, isolated reports, collated by Imperial scribes from war zones throughout the galaxy, began to describe a horrifying new threat to Loyalist forces. The fragmentary reports, teased from incoherent, near-insane individuals, survivors wracked and broken by the horrors of what they had witnessed, told of an apparition that haunted the fields of battle – a being of sheer terror. Blacker than the deepest void but with a form that shifted and rebuilt as it prowled, the abomination was unaffected by the physical restraints of reality and seemed to hunt with an extrasensory perception of its prey and surroundings. It would dissolve and reform into the very thing that those it hunted feared most, spawning armaments of nightmarish aspect to tear its victims apart in a tailored agony. Such a being – a weapon given animus – was originally suspected to have been a product of the clandestine temples of the Officio Assassinorum, but even investigation at the highest level of access priority yielded no information of a clade of killers of this form

Osmeotic Regeneration

To an Infernus Abomination the briefest physical contact with the flesh of living, or even recently deceased, acts as if it were a narcotic substance, invigorating a powerful and overwhelming bloodlust. Simple blood or muscle cells are consumed to fuel the murder-instinct of the Infernus but of particular potency are the tissues of the brain and nervous system. With the ingestion of cerebral matter, saturated with the darkest thoughts and deepest fears of the being it once constituted, an Infernus Abomination nourishes its physical form, its sundered flesh and torn musculature knitting together anew.

Boneshard Spitter

The horrifying, gore-soaked appendages of an Infernus Abomination morph and distend into an almost limitless number of biological forms but often take the shape of a cluster of orifices, each lined with rows of tooth-like spikes or shards of splintered bone, coated in a gloss-black bio-toxic ichor. With a sharp contraction the Abomination is able to launch these growths in a hail of shredding projectiles that cause the blood in the veins of their targets to thicken and clot in a dark spider web that rapidly spreads from the site of even the slightest puncture wound.

Transmutative Armaments

To look upon an Infernus Abomination is to observe a thing of utter darkness, less simply black and more the absolute antithesis of light itself. Even at rest, the Infernus is said to be of a constantly shifting form, both growing and contracting like the ceaseless billowing of a thunderhead before the breaking of a storm; its skin visibly crawling with a barely-restrained yearning to butcher and flay all living things. The tools with which it indulges its base desires can seemingly be conjured at will, its human-like limbs transmuting in a horrifying contortion of bone and sinew to form savagely barbed blades, viscous flailing tentacles or fans of razor talons dripping with poisons, in the blink of an eye.

Wraithskin
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Unlike the synthetic suits used by operatives of the Assassin Clades that wraithskin appears to mimic, it is not a closely guarded technological treasure. They are an abhorrent fusion of forbidden craft networked with a psy-conductive matrix that draws power from the negative emotions of its wearer, selectively amplifying and concentrating them. Instead of working in harmony with the anatomy of the wearer to enhance their capabilities, a wraithskin effectively overrides the neural impulses controlling motor functions. The resulting effect is continuous agony as tendons are ripped, muscles are torn and bones fractured as the body is pushed beyond the thresholds of its normal capabilities. For the Infernus Abomination, this vicious cycle of self-destruction and regeneration must be sustained by continuous hunting and killing.

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Sincerely sorry once again if such post are not allowed since the book is new and i will remove it

Welcome to the weekly Rowing achievement thread!
What was your achievement this week? It could be anything! A new 2k PB? Get a good lift at the gym? Or even your first time capsizing a single!
Got a erg screen or a regular training shot? Curious what your 2K will be based on a workout? This is the place for it!
Side note: 99% of erg screens should go in this thread. A separate post with an erg screen should be something that happens once or twice a year, at most. Big PR's, that kind of thing.
Also, please check our wiki pages:

• Which erg to buy
• Is this a good erg time?
• How do I set up for steady state?
• Where do I set the lever on the side (what's drag factor)?
• What apps can I use when erging?

This thread is likely to fill up quickly, consider sorting the comments by "new" (instead of "best" or "top") to see the newest posts.
This is a judgement free zone, so be respectful, positive and keep criticism constructive.

- Ask any start/sit, waiver or trade related questions here to get the quickest responses.
- Please include as many details in your post as possible (teams in league, roster sizes, starting positions, etc.)

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It seems like every other post today has been about how someone is "disappointed" in Fashion Dreamer. It's fine to be unsure about it, to have concerns about it, but how can you be disappointed when you haven't even played it yet?
It seems like everyone is assuming the worst, too -- that it'll be devoid of content, that it'll be $60, etc. You're all making yourself believe things about this game that nobody knows yet. Who ever said it'll be $60? There's a good chance it'll be a budget game, or even free-to-play. Not only that, but a lot of games in the current market use a business model of regular content updates. It would make sense for a game like Fashion Dreamer to get post-launch updates adding new clothes or gameplay features.
There's just as much of a chance for it to be good as there is for it to be bad. If everyone decides it'll be bad before it even comes out, it'll have less positive word-of-mouth, giving it less of a chance to succeed, and as a result, less chance for there to be a new Style Savvy game. Not to say that we should all automatically support it regardless of quality, but let's at least give it a chance.

This is it! The final thread of the season and I have finally caught up with the scores for the table.
The past few weeks have seen incredible highs and lows, and they have left u/DickMoveDave in a commanding position. Their lead has stretched to 170 points, and with only 10 matches left it may be an unassailable position. Having said that, there were plenty of scores in the past month which were just shy of the 200-point mark, so the right few results might see someone else pip the title.

Table:

Place	User	GP	W	D	Points	Acc	PPG
1	u/DickMoveDave	291	37	112	2600	51%	8.93
	Sutton (total)	367	29	144	2600	47%	7.08
2	u/A_B28	294	32	115	2430	50%	8.27
3	u/happytampon	288	29	125	2410	53%	8.37
4	u/jackgrealish	247	34	100	2360	54%	9.55
5	u/gerbilmuncher	278	33	104	2360	49%	8.49
6	u/CaptainCabinets-	284	30	111	2310	50%	8.13
7	u/TheDonkeyCow	291	30	110	2300	48%	7.90
8	u/Krb019	296	24	116	2120	47%	7.16
9	u/witheoffthepost	296	23	108	2000	44%	6.76
	Sutton (Average)	278	22	109	1970	47%	7.08
10	u/SuperVillain85	238	25	86	1860	47%	7.82
11	u/JMStitch	258	13	104	1560	45%	6.05
12	u/chevillanski	264	18	84	1560	39%	5.91
13	u/SpaceboyMcGhee	204	16	88	1520	51%	7.45
14	u/paneless	205	14	76	1320	44%	6.44
15	u/h4v0k_9935	155	13	64	1160	50%	7.48
16	u/loveonthedole	151	14	60	1160	49%	7.68
17	u/Pejob	139	15	54	1140	50%	8.20
18	u/peetzs	137	16	49	1130	47%	8.25
19	u/Foreign-Plane-5170	127	12	51	990	50%	7.80
20	u/TheLenderman	149	9	61	970	47%	6.51
21	u/Mole451	166	9	61	970	42%	5.84
22	u/3nRoute	109	11	42	860	49%	7.89
23	u/Fusho_Intoku	79	7	33	610	51%	7.72
24	u/newirisha	72	6	26	500	44%	6.94
25	u/DavidGamer602	33	2	12	200	42%	6.06
26	u/Listen_Boss	23	2	10	180	52%	7.83
27	u/has922	10	2	4	120	60%	12.00
28	u/Jmacadd	30	1	8	120	30%	4.00
29	u/Desperate_Hyena_4398	11	0	6	60	55%	5.45

Plenty of players have absolutely trounced Sutton this year, with our average accuracy (48%) and PPG (7.55) both a fair bit higher than Sutton's (47% and 7.08).
Also, u/DickMoveDave can outscore Sutton despite predicting 76 fewer matches!
I will post a results thread as soon as I can, including the results of the mini-league, so keep an eye out for that.
Good luck everyone on the final day! UTV!

Fixtures:

Arsenal vs Wolves
Aston Villa vs Brighton
Brentford vs Man City
Chelsea vs Newcastle
Crystal Palace vs Nottm Forest
Everton vs Bournemouth
Leeds vs Tottenham
Leicester vs West Ham
Man Utd vs Fulham
Southampton vs Liverpool
As always, your predictions must be submitted before kickoff. I tend to give a grace period of a few minutes but in today's case (all kickoffs at the same time) I will likely be a bit stricter.
Again, thanks everyone for your patience with me all season, best of luck!

MY PERSONAL DEVELOPMENT
INTRODUCTION
Hello there! My name is Siddharth Rai and I live in India. I am a twenty-six-year-old male and I live with my parents. I work at the nearby airport as an electrical engineer. I have a younger sister who is studying zoology in a college nearby and she lives away from us due to her college. My writing style might not be appealing but I would be happy if you read and reviewed my article. It will help me get new interesting things to you. I hope you enjoy reading this.
I have always wanted to write a book. I like to write poems, I like music, I like art and I like to travel. I have never travelled out of my country except to Nepal. Nepal is quite nearby to where I live. I live in the eastern India, Darjeeling. Some of you might have heard or visited the place before. I live in the foothills though- Siliguri but the district is Darjeeling. I have spent around thirteen years of my life in Darjeeling. I miss those golden days that I have spent with my family and friends in Darjeeling. Those days will never come back again. It is a beautiful pain. All the crazy things that we do as teenagers, I did it in Darjeeling- fighting, having girlfriends, forming a band, roaming around the streets- everything. Some of the people I met on the streets are now superstars and some homeless vagabonds. Some are married and some committed suicide because they couldn’t love. I am just a regular guy like you. I think I am below average when it comes to money, prestige, personality and many other things that define us- a lifestyle.
The reason I thought about writing this article is because I want to become a better person as I am approaching towards my thirties. I have heard somewhere that writing makes it easier and effective to do something that we want to do. I hope this article will help you in some way or the other. I will share some of the deepest things that I feel. I will talk about my past. I will let you know about my present and I will also try to show you the future that I have visioned for myself. I will be talking about my personality development.
PERSONALITY DEVELOPMENT
We have often heard about the word personality. We have often heard about one getting complimented for their personalities and sometimes people finding their personalities not matching with others, mostly to their partners. It’s interesting to see us being conscious about so many things in our lives. Our beauty, physique, clothes, status in the society, possessions, partners and other small things like our fear of facing people, inferiority, pride, love, attachment. Well personality is a sphere where all of the conscious things are confined into.
It is the way we react to the factors that make us feel something- good or bad. Feeling good includes many things- paragliding, completing a trek, listening to classical music, releasing a music video. Feeling bad might feel like thinking about the moment that hurts you- could be anything, you know better.
How are you going to react to the situations-now and then? That defines your personality. If you ask the instructor for your money back after a paragliding session because you couldn’t fly for another ten minutes because of the weather then you need to work on some parts of your life and if you left your girl with the man and her friends just because you missed the party the previous night then you need to work on some part of your life- you might be using your head too much. I am worried about how am I going to handle a relationship in the future because I’ve messed up my previous ones- I need to work on some part of my life. My personality is not balanced.
Personality is a gift- a box of chocolates- it’s tasty but harmful if eaten too much.
THAT’S HOW IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE
It was the last day of 2017 and my girlfriend had come to Siliguri with her friends. I had my aunt come over from a distant place and we had to go visit our relatives, so I was caught up with my family. My girlfriend called me and told me that she was around in the market with her friends and some unknown person gave them a lift back home. I told her to be cautious around and we agreed to meet the next day. Late night she told me how she missed me, and she went to sleep early that night. I thought she was cheating on me, and I sent her some rubbish texts. Cool- the night passed quite fast.
I went to meet her the very next morning just to see a guy in their apartment. He was my old friend. She told me that he had just arrived. And he looked like he had just woken up. Good! She treated me like a kid, and I know I was in the wrong place with wrong people. She tried to be herself, but I didn’t feel her. In my mind I was constantly thinking about she is cheating on me. I left the place early and booked two tickets for me and her to get back home. They came late. I had to travel with them. This guy had a car. An unknown man giving them a lift back home, sleeping early, not wanting to go home with me- I was hurt and mad. I wanted to break up already. But I waited because I wasn’t sure if it was the right reason to leave her. So, I waited and just after two months I saw her with a different guy. This time she had come to visit me, but I went to play basketball with my friends because she wanted to have some time with her cousins. Well, I was late by a couple of hours, and she called up her friend and had him over as a company- this guy was the one whom she met when we had a fight back in 2016. Her friend had introduced them to each other- her friend who wanted her to break up with me because I was a needy, passive and a childlike boyfriend- who always was insecure, quarrelling and a noob. This friend of hers was the one whom I admired back in high school.
We broke up January 2018 for good. It was the third or the fourth time, but we broke up finally, forever. I wanted to break up with her because I thought I wasn’t good enough for her. Well, it was a whole different reason for me because the actual reason why I wanted to break up with her was because I wasn’t feeling loved. I didn’t have the guts to accept it and move on. I used to think it will hurt her badly, she is an innocent girl, and I would give it a new chance. I once put my mobile on complete shut down for a month to get away from her- that was the time she changed drastically because she realized that I wasn’t into her anymore. But we got back together shortly- she loved me after all, and so did I because I realized that instead of roaming around with strangers it was better for me to strengthen my relationships with people who love me- I was wrong. She had other guys in her life now- like that guy in their apartment, like that guy her friend had introduced to her and that addict guy who she had her in her phone list.
I was alone-broken. I put too much pressure on my rational mind and started emphasizing on my emotions. I brought this cloud of sadness over me. I wanted to put her into depression- I did. I was depressed too. Influence. My friend was a depressed person. He would talk about how depressed he was, how his past relationships had failed, how jealous he was of me, how he would talk about suicides and philosophies that I couldn’t understand. Influence! I don’t hang around with him anymore. I don’t meet him. He has a good job now. He is financially stable and has a girlfriend. I have no idea about my ex. We haven’t talked with each other since the day we parted our ways- she is hurt you know. I hurt her more than anybody else and I don’t want to go back to her with my dark shadow over her head. I am fine alone with my personality development obsession and sickness. I hope both of them are safe and sound.
I want to forget about my past but I can’t because I have hurt some of the best people of my life like my parents, family, friends, teachers, girlfriend and even a dog- damn! I wonder if she is alive- Dalli the dog. My friend’s dog. She gave birth to two little puppies. One is with us-a mother now- Lily. Lily makes me happy. She is wonderful. The only reason why I was facing the hardest time of my life was because I didn’t have any purpose in life. I wasn’t fulfilling my duty-studying. I would get high the entire day, miss my classes and sleep after a masturbation session. Food and shelter were available for me as my parents paid for it. They would send money every month and I would eat, get high, sleep- repeat. I did this for two years and my girlfriend was gone, I had failed in my semesters like a dead toad, I was financially depressed, I had lost weight, I was now a little jerk. I wasn’t happy. I never wanted to kill myself though. I wasn’t raised that way. My father was in the army, and you know how it is in the military family- respect and discipline but I packed my bags and returned back home during my third year and a year of my college was still left behind.
When I went back home, I couldn’t find my peace because my aunt was living with my mother with her little daughter- my sister. When I went there to live with my mother there were four ladies and me- one man. I had habits and it was difficult for me to maintain them. The rooms were small, and everything was audible. I had a habit of masturbating before sleep. And my aunt would sleep in the room right next to mine. I sometimes wanted to screw her up, but I knew it was not a moral decision. I wanted to seduce her just to masturbate but I couldn’t because I didn’t know how to. And interestingly I was a virgin until twenty-five years old. That was one of the reasons why my relationship didn’t work out with that girl because I couldn’t fuck. I mean she would say after marriage, but she would also get naked and get missionary, but I was facing mild erectile dysfunction because of heavy marijuana dosage, porn and excessive masturbation. So, maybe that didn’t work out. I left my mother’s comfort and came back to college to complete my education and I did but a year later. My psycho friend had passed his college and I was left behind with another friend of mine- loser no.2. I think he still is a virgin. But I am not. Not anymore!
My friends and I none of us got placed. We were jobless and there was corona virus and lockdown. It was good time for assholes like me to waste life away. I would spend my day by playing Pubg with my friends, watching porn and masturbating. My good time had begun. I was lucky enough to have faced an interview with the army for army engineering and not lucky enough for selection but reaching that spot where I was trying to compete to become an officer in the army. I was lucky enough to have got the chance to spend my time peacefully with my mother and my sister. My aunt had gone back home- her child had a vacation now- due corona and all.
One of my cousins are the in army. He was home for a break, and he motivated me to jog in the morning. I ran for two or three months but quit. But my mind was now looking for motivation to stay fit. One day I was watching porn and masturbation. Right after ejaculation I decided to stop watching porn and masturbating. Oh! Good days! I felt so good that day when I didn’t masturbate. I felt clean and guilt free. I was free now. I would miss my ex though. Her smile, her sadness, the burden she had due to me, the heavy heart that she had because she never wanted to leave me. I hope she is free and happy. I wish her the best and ask for forgiveness for every little thing that I did to her. I never wanted to make you cry but I am sorry. I have realized my mistakes now and I want to see you with a smiling face one day. I have moved on, but I am around, and I hope you too. Take care.
My friends have hurt me too and I have hurt them too. My family has hurt me, and I have hurt them too. People change but you don’t. Things always happen to you. Girlfriend, friends, family, money and etc.
FOCUS
If I could move a mountain, I would try to carry it around on my shoulders. A child, a teenager, an adult, a man, a woman, old, new no matter who, everyone is trying to find something in their lives- focus. If they lose focus, they will never be able to talk. Try not thinking anything and talking- you will notice how your brain coordinates your speech. We don’t care what we talk about because we are focused on something- conveying our message. It’s important to learn how to improve your focus. Thus, in order to improve your focus let’s try:

1. Meditating: Five to fifteen minutes a day- om meditation or guided meditation. Connect yourself with the inner spirit. Find out how heavy your chest is and how clouded your mind is. You are supposed to be as light the air and as clean as the water in the spring. Your mind should contain natural sceneries and not porn.
2. Exercising: Your body is a masterpiece of art. A godly creation. The entire human civilization is based on bodies. The entire art and history show how great leaders and warriors and scholars looked like. They had extremely appealing bodies, no matter what nation they belonged to. Romans, Greeks, British, Chinese, Japanese, Indians, Gorkhas, Sikhs, Mughals, and Americans, all of them have an interesting thing to notice- their bodies. Fast and furious to giants and strong. They all are focused. Some ruling the nations, some fighting wars, some creating art, some politics and some philosophies. They have a balance between their and heart and their brain. Have you ever done a chin up? Next time you do try to notice how your heart gets connected to your brain like a hook linking a loop. So, dear friends- exercise.
3. Study: I study engineering because I want to reach a better position in my career. You can study to be happy or flourish your business. But study something- learn.
4. Work: Work. Move your body, use your head. Work. Let your body know about discomfort and tiredness. In these modern times we have found new ways to earn our livelihoods- investment especially. If you are not a broker who works, his heart out to analyze and make profit and you are the one who makes money and live luxurious life out of the money your broker made for you then you should at least spend some time trying to make money the hard way- at least a day. I know you have been through a lot, and you have finally found your financial peace, or you were born rich, but I must tell you he is not a man who doesn’t work. You can try house chores if nothing is coming to your mind. So, work just to get yourself in motion.
5. Hobbies: I play dota2 and I want to play the internationals. I sing karaoke. Do what gets you excited to get back home.
6. Read: Read books. I want to learn finance, health, relationship, science and engineering. You can read them too. Reading is something that makes time for your brain to rest for some time. It will settle down some of your chemical imbalances there.
7. Write: Write your deepest feelings, write a short story, write essays. Write. You can’t always be verbally sharing things with others. Some things might have been missed and some left unsaid like the ones in the previous paragraphs. It’s just a good thing to do-write.

INTEREST
If you can’t quit, then it means you are inspired. Inspiration and motivation are two different things. You can’t inspire someone verbally, but you can motivate them. Inspiration is long lasting, and motivation is short term. Motivation is like fuel to your inspiration. You will understand it. Just try to do something that you are interested in for three months. That’s a goal.
I am interested in many things. Interest as I say please refer to skills- just to make it easier for you to understand the difference between hobbies and interests. My interests are in programming, designing electrical circuits, photography and content writing. These are skills that I want to acquire, and I am “interested in”. My interest can’t be lifelong because I have distractions around. So, with a small technique I can learn these skills without losing my interest. The technique is numbering. Just put make a list of things that you want to learn. It will help you not lose your interest.
How to keep your interest alive?
You can try writing them down on a diary. Make a list of your interest. Interests are those skills that can make you famous, rich and happy like painting, programming etc. Show your interests to the world on social platforms to gain fame, sell them or get a job to get rich and master your skills to be happy. Have some interest friends.
Basically, if you have a good body, wealth, character, behavior, manner, education, then you will have a personality that is safe and sound. People below your level will not mess with you and you won’t mess with people that are above you. But you will become someone who can deal with both the types because it’s not every day you get to meet and talk to the president and it’s seldom you need to avoid people that can harm you- rich and the poor.
Thank you for sticking to this post for such a long time. I feel humble enough to present this article to you. I would like to apologize if anybody was offended in this post. I can’t think more than this my friends. I would appreciate it if you left your valuable comments on this. Thanks, and may God bless you.

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My name is Dylan and I’m a 21 year old single guy from northeastern Illinois in the US. Ever find yourself nice and cozy in bed late at night and feeling rather lonely and wishing you had that special someone to look forward to talking to and hearing from? That person you know is special and who you trust and is like your best friend. Someone you can laugh with and enjoy being around. Someone you can share pics with and just feel yourself with and maybe flirt with as well and form something close such as a FWB.
Sexually I'm very open and I like to please lol.
Physically I'm 6ft tall, I'm average/slim build, and I'm white/Caucasian with hazel eyes and dark brown hair. I wear glasses too and I'm neatly shaven :) There's pictures of me on my profile because I'm tired of getting ghosted and I wanted to weed out the people who are going to ghost me after seeing me, for whatever reason lol.
Now that we've established who I am and what I'm looking for, here are a few interests of mine to get to know me better!
• Fall/Autumn season
I had to list this one because I just adore the fall and everything that comes with it. My birthday is in October too so it's always been my favorite month. I much prefer fall and winter over a muggy humid summer. In the cooler seasons there's always ways to warm up.
• Candles and Incense
I love candles and incense and stuff like this!! I feel like you don't find guys into this stuff that much but I definitely am an exception :D
• Technology
I'm good at fixing electronics and I'm quite nerdy in that aspect. So if something breaks I can fix it ;) I'm also good with my hands and quite inclined mechanically and quite the nerd :P
• Music
I love genres such as classic rock, alternative rock, psychedelic rock, gothic rock, heavy metal, punk, post punk, hardcore, etc. My current favorite bands are The Cure and Joy Division/New Order. But I like tons of older and newer bands as well. such as: Bauhaus, Velvet Underground, Siouxsie and the Banshees, Type O Negative, Nirvana, Rush, Pink Floyd, Janis Joplin, the Wipers, Spacemen 3, Meshuggah, Megadeth, Buzzcocks, MC5, Stooges, 13th Floor Elevators, Screaming Trees, Green Day, Alice in Chains, Asylum Party, My Bloody Valentine, King Gizzard and the Lizard Wizard, Jefferson Airplane, etc.
• Cooking and Baking
I like to cook and learn new recipes, as well as bake fun things too! It's always nice when the house feels nice and cozy and smells good. I appreciate the simple pleasures in life, a cozy cup of tea and music or a movie in bed or sitting outside is so nice! I believe in veganism and I've been trying to become more vegan lately in what I eat.
• Animals
I love animals of all types, and I currently have an older cat which I adore to death! We rescued her from the local shelter. She's the sweetest thing. (I think I love her more than anyone in the house lol, she just makes me so happy) :) I also don't kill insects or bugs, I catch and release them outside.
• Art
I enjoy art, both creating it from time to time such as drawing, and admiring other peoples work. There's just something so fun about it and seeing things so beautiful.
• Houseplants
I love houseplants and really anything nature related and also spiritual such as crystals and rocks. I love to help my mom in caring for all of our plants and also gardening outside when its a good growing season. Its fun! I also like cottage core and goblin core type vibes and enjoy sitting out on the deck burning incense, its peaceful :)
• Cozy video games
I'm not a hardcore gamer really, but I enjoy simple and fun cozy relaxing games such as Stardew valley and Minecraft. :)
• Photography
I recently got a DSLR camera, a Nikon D5500 and I've really been enjoying taking photos of my cat and nature landscapes! This includes closeups, photos of trees, the fields, etc. I've been working a lot on composition, long exposures, getting nice blurred backgrounds, depth of field, etc. It's interesting to me.
• Urbex
Haven't been able to explore anything yet, but I like to watch videos of abandoned asylums and places like that as well as dead malls and things. The Proper People, Exploration Unknown, Sal, and Dan Bell are a few of my favorite urbex type of YT people. I'm a definite believer in the paranormal as I've had a first hand account with a spirit before in my own house!
I won't ever discriminate over anything. I will always be upmost respectful and honest to a potential partner. I am non judgmental and always honest in my feelings.
Thank you for checking out my post and if I seemed to catch your interest I'd love to hear from you soon!

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